*WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE ME...*

Early mornings has always been drag for me
However, the voices of Dan and Grace never fail to perk me up...
Tidying my bed has never been my forté, so my bed is always in a complete mess...
Getting ready still half asleep, I move slowly, as slow as a snail...
Breakfast's not my thing... so see ya' later mom, see ya' later dad!
It's time for school... yeay?
School is like prison for me, and the gate is the gateway to hell...
(If You Want to read this part of the poem... approach me aightx!)
And it's time for class... hoorah?
3E1 is divided into three groups of people...
C.O.D. (Childish, Obnoxious Dumbos),
Y.K.W.W. (You know what? Whatever!) and
S.I.Q. (Smart, Intelligrnt but Quiet).
I happened to be a Y.K.W.W.ian... lucky me...
each groupof people are always nucleated in one corner...
The Dumbos at the back,
The smarties at the front, and
The heck-care-you-know-whats in the middle...
Oh ya... I forgot... the Coucillors...
We are usualy clumped together... that is in the middle...
Now... it's time to refer to the Time-table...
Hmm... what lessons are we having?
Math- A & E Maths; Confusing...
English- I can't help noticing him staring at her bum...
Bahasa- erm... Baku-ish?
Chemistry- What a drag... (well... actualy... it's something else.. approach me to find out)
Biology- Tick, Tock, Tick, Tock...
Physics- must pass... must PASS!!!
Social Studies- Good morning classs...
Geography- SO WHAT IS THE GRRRADIENT?
Whoah... what a scock I had there...
*sigh* What to do? At least I'm serving "National Service"...
The 'Pokemon-ish' chime marks the end of school...
Now this is a true YEAH!!!
But what's the point?
My YEAH will eventually turn to Argh...
Meetings, CCAs, Remedials blah blah blah...
Tuesday's Maths Remedial,
Wednesday's Band Prac,
Thursday's English Remedial,
Friday's erm... kind to think of it...Prayers should be described as enriching... so that's not an argh....
And... I'm only left with Mondays...
Saturday's Band Prac...
But at least I get to spend at least an hour with my friends...
That's worth having than not meeting them at all...
So, I make use of the time... to be with the friends I care...
Speaking of friends...
After being betrayed by my so-called 'Friends'...
Now I'm left with four best friends...
Three guys and a girl.
being an only child in my family,
I regarded them like my own brothers and sister...
We share problems, we share joy, we share secrets...
We even tease one another... hehex...
With the Rrrs, with the lame sarcasm and jokes...
But I really do treasure my friendship with these kind souls...
Thanks for all your time, love and care...
Hope we'll be friends forever...
So you see... Being me brings some of the good, some of the bad...
Bad as in being stressed all the time and being betrayed...
But Good as in being with friends and helping others...
It's hard being me, and I guess that it's harder being someone else...
So in conclusion... No one will ever be me... except ME!!!
©Copyright of Ayul Freakydaxious '04. All rights reserved...
 

Aah! Finally i get to update my blog... well just for now... hehexxx....
Whoah!... it's been like two months that i've not updated my blog... too bad my internet access is being suspended due to outstanding balance of over $300++! hmm... why did i spend such a long time on the comp evry dae..... haix...

aniwae... within these two months... i had many experiences that i wished to tell u about... but i think i'll just give sum....

hmm... my last post was on the 22nd June rite?.... hmm... if i'm not wrong.... the next event that happened in my life... was the elections i guess... well... although i did not win the presidential election... it's ok... at least i've tried my best... btw... Zulhilmi was elected the President of SC '04... and Shi Yu the Vise-President.... hmm... all i can sae is that... zul, shiyu... dun worry.... the rest of the councillors will be supporting you... and remember to belanja us ah! haix... too bad they did not reveal the number of votes... i heard that one of us got only 10 votes! but it's ok... at least i get to be the Treasurer!

wat else... AH!!! Zafirah's Birthdae... well... it was on 23rd August....all i can get for her was the name bracelet wadever... i hope she likes it.... and... me and azhar was smsing like two daes before the dae... and we came up with this idea to make a big card... and decorate it... den we'll pass around the card for the people to write their wishes and sign... the title of the card was "15 marks the beginning of a new chapter in your life... Start Cherishing it!" hope you like it gerl!

den after that... erm... should i like talk about the tests that i've had so far?... well... why not... well honestly... i've failed almost all of my tests since the start of the term... especially A & E Mathematics! i scored from a range of 25% to 43% like that... and of coz, i'm dissappointed with myself... but all this committments.... aiyax.... Student Council, Band, Prefects, NE Ambs... alot to handle.... but all thanks to Mr Vincent Lim... he sat down with me one dae... and he shared with me all his time management tips and his "daes"... from then on... if sum of u noticed it... i was all of a sudden quiet for a few daes... coz... i alwaes kept on thinking... what the hell am i doing... then i read this quote...

ok.... let me warn y'all.... it's gonna be a very long post..... so.... bear with it....

ok.... todae is my 2nd dae in my house since i came back from camp yesterdae...yesterdae.... was my birthdae.... but it was a sleepy birthdae.... as i slept from 3:30pm yesterdae.... to 5am todae.... no empty of tanks wadsoever.... jus sleep..... wat to... i was so damn tired.... cos the 2nd night of the camp... i did not sleep.... me, faizal, hakim, raihana, zawana and maslina.... decided to stay up till 5 to chat about things....

ok... here goes my own itenerary of the camp...

DAY 1
i arrived in school at 7:15 am.... after i went the MRT station to top up my ez-link card..... when i came.... there were only faizal and mas there.... so the three of us.... sat at the canteen and talked..... and also wait for the others.... den kamelia came... after that was hakim.... i tink.... den....i forgot....

aniwae... we waited.... den looked at each other's HPs.... den we hid it as mr taufiq came.... to mark attendance.... after that.... we boarded the bus to Chong Pang CC...... where we met with the camp facilitators and Anderson Secondary School students....

after settling down for a while... we were all allocated to our various groups.... there are 8 groups in total... Achilles, Apollo, Artemis, Athena, Hector, Odysseus, Paris and Poseidon... i was allocated to Artemis, the most 'Creative' group in the camp.... but too bad Faizal was allocated to Apollo..... heixxx....

aniwae... my GLs were Theresa, Sheena and Grance.... but when we were at Chong Pang CC, Grance was not there..... he'd be meeting us at NTU.....

aniwae.... den we were given a piece of vanguard sheet.... den we have to decorate it with our name in it.... den.... we played ice breakers.... we started the 'Linking' game... or wadever it's called.... where we have to bend down with out right hand holding the left hand of the person behind u and the left hand holding the right hand of the person in front of.... the right hand must go through between our thighs.... i was like... erm... wat?

aniwae.... the game goes like this.... nah.... nvm.... jus approach me and i tell u...

i tink i'm jus gonna skip the other ice-breakers.... so i'll continue with the arrival at NTU....

ok... so we arrived at NTU rite.... den.... we are all allocated to our rooms.... where two peeps have to share one room.... i shared it with kwan meng as we were in the same group....

aniwae.... after that... it's LUNCH time.... but the 'Tempeh' is so like.... eewgh.... not nice....

den.... it was time to play the team-building games.... there are 4 stations.... so 2 groups would be at the same station at the same time.... aniwae.... artemis and athena started the skipping game first... again... all the games please approach me... i malas nak type....

den, we played the 'Spiderweb', followed by the 'Snake' and lastly.... the 'Pail game'.... where i fell and wasted a lot of water.... and that which made us lose to athena.... sorie artemis....

aniwae.... den.... we went into the seminar room.... which looks like a music room... as it's small.... to have a talk on 'Interpersonal Skills'... made by some Eurasians.... i onli noe Britney.... as she is preety.... oww!

den after that.... we played two games.... the Captain's Banana and Uh, Ah, Ar...... wadever it is.....

den... at 6:30 like dat.... it's dinner time.....
we ate erm... Briyani... again... it's unlikable.....

den... after taht... we are given the time to bathe.... den... we were called down to the meeting area tomingle around for a while.... den all of us were split into 2 teams... those groups with the name that starts with A... is Team 1 and the others team 2.... it was time for the 'Journey of no return...' or in other terms.... NIGHTWALK.... aniwae... dis night walk was the first for me..... each of the members.... have to go through the walk alone.... i was like wat?

aniwae.... i went off first as i wanted too... test my self u see.... aniwae.... i had to follow these BLUE lightsticks along the wae.... so... i went off.... den i had to go through this compound of a house.... which was lighted but i cannot see anibodi inside.... i thought to myslef.... wont i be tresspassing... but who cares.... so i went on... but then... i noticed sumting.... sumting scary.... if u wanna noe... jsu approach me.... i dun wan to scare y'all... but i did see sumting.... so... i plucked up the courage to ignore that sumting... and just walked off... i said to myself.... just look in front... dun look aniwhere else other than the front... get the hell out of here... as soon as possible no matter wat.... dun answer anibodi's calls no matter wat./... and sae ur prayers.....

so luckily.... i got out safe.... then walked quickly to the last station.... sum GLs are there... including mine.... so i was relieved... but i just kept quiet..... until beryl came along and said sumting.... wat she saw.... she saw an auntie in the kitchen.... nora saw an uncle, chen ping saw an uncl;e carrying sum tings.... ziyuan saw and auntie on the swing... i tink... i dunno about kwan meng... and i saw it.... but then... apollo's members came... so artemis decided to ask each of apollo members the same question... did u saw sumting?

sum saw and uncle, auntie... and the scariest... zawana... she saw two kids on the second level waving at her.... that was like... creepy.... as the second level was actually blacked out wen artemis went pass the house....

erm... ok... stop tokin about the walk... so... i'll continue...

after the walk... team A all go into the seminar room to have debrief and reflection....

den it was supper.... we ate jus some kueh... which was disgustingly sweet....

den... good nite to us all... but i onli slept at 2.... as i was buzy with something....

DAY 2

so woke up at 5:45... but slept again for about an hour where faizal called me at 6:30.... so we (me and kawan meng) went up to bathe with faizal and joshua.....
den at 7... we went down for breakfast... we ate jus kuehs again... again... disgustingly sweet... den... we had a lecture on first aid... where i started to sms him as i was very bored....

den... after that.... we had Luch where... this time... it was nicer as we ate Nasi Ayam... and i had like 3 pieces of the wings as nora did not want one....finally this time i burped.... den... we headed to town for the Amazing Race.... we alighted at the Supreme Court... and that my group were the 2nd team to go.... aniwae... it took us like 45 mins to reach our first checkpoint.... ok... let me give u a rough schedule of the stations...

the game started at 1 so...
1:45pm-Burlington Point
2:05pm-Istana Park
2:50pm-Shell House
3:05pm-MITA Building
3:30pm-Chines Heritage Centre in Chinatown
3:30pm- 5:15pm.... we're lost..... actually we cant decide to go which place... ziyuan's suggested place or Clifford Per... but actually Clifford Pier... but then the Games GL called and ended the game.... we were dissappointed but Grance encouraged us.... that had left a smile on our faces... thx man...

aniwae... we approached Fort Canning Park where the other groups were all waitin for us...

den we went back to NTU... den we bathe... den... i was time for... TALENT-NIGHT!!!

but my group did not do quite well... as we had to do this Beauty and the Beast Singaporean style... as u noe.. Beryl jus couldn't stop with my Beauty and the Beast.... and sumore... i had to sing it... and also be the annoying Clock....

aniwae... but before that.... Paris had to perform... and they did the Kamate thing... and it was kinda funny yet scary as they had to do the Tongue-stick out thingy..... erm.... oh oh....

aniwae... faizal's group (Apollo) did a silent rendition of the 3 little pigs... it was kinda boring... but i noe that it's just a last minute thingy... so... i'll have to praise on their effort...

aniwae.... after all the 8 groups had performed... the GLs put up a performance.... calling their item.... Chong Pang Idol.... where the judges were the Indian version of Simon cowell, specially flown on from india.... Ridzuan... and we also have a just-discharged-from-breast-enhancement-patient... our very own Paula Abdul... Paula 'Royston' Abdul.... and our ever so skinny Randy... but the thing is... i dunno his name.... aniwae... about 5 GLs went up and sang.... aiyoxxx... ridzuan/ simon.... jered to all contestants except for his 'State'.... she did this sexy thing... eewwgh..... so i started shouting...
"Ridzuan... u're the worst judge i've ever seen.... u're FIRED!"

den.... Supper wrapped up the night.... oh ya... i forgot.... for the Talent night thing... Affiq's group did this Dance demonstration... where for one of the dances... dey did this floor dance... it was really explicit and affiq was really really creeping me out.... he did this so called 'slavery or seduction' dance on Eileen.... and at one time... ridzuan... also followed the dance and both affiq and him nearly kissed... sumore it happened in fornt of me... i was like.... EEEEEWWWWGGGGGHHJHHHH!!!!!!!!! OMG.... WAT R THEY DOIN?!?!?!?

so.... let's forget about it.... so let me continue.... it was supper rite.... but Artemis had their supper sumwhere else.... where Grance had bought for me... no... for us... cake and sum tid bits.... and we celebrated my birthdae.... by blowing out the candles together.... as y'all noe... it's my birthdae... so they all celebrated also... i was like crying... but tried hiding it... aww thxx u guys.....

DAY 3 & My Birthdae....

den it was almost 12 rite... and most of the campers had gathered near us... and they wanted to sabo me lah.... so i decided to go to the canteen.... then at 12... Faizal and Hairie (Andersin)grabbed me and pulled me to the gathering area.... but then i got free.... so i ran awae.... but too bad beryl, faizal, kwan meng and zawana... got hold of me and each of them gave me 15 punches.... OWWW!!!!!! thx alot...

den... i was so dumb to go back to the gathering area... where i had no choice but to receive further 'Sabo' as i couldnt even bother to run./... so they did this ritual thingy.... whwere they pour water over me and wished me sum wishes.... and i was like drenched.....

den... after that... we got the lounge where we watched NASCAR.... i tink.... then i decided to change.... den after changing.... me, hakim, rai, mas and zawana.... decided to Ton *(wadever.... stay awake) to have a chat.... at Rai's bunk.... den Faizal joined us a bit later... den we talked of things... and also... the sabo did not stop.... i kena terok siak!!! there's this trick that Hakim did on me.... where i had to stare at the HP and when he says 'Magixword'.... i have tpsae out this phrase from Babyboy... den after avery sae... i must get closer to the HP.... den after 3 times.... u noe wat he did??? nah... find out from me loh..... lolxxxx....

aniwae..... we decided to lepak outside.... we went to the park first but.... we went back to th stairs in front of the gathering area..... aND all 6 heads rest on 1 pillow... and we star-gazed..... den.... after a while... we slept for about an hour... it was kinda cool... but then halfwae..... i had to wake up as the one that slept on my right (Hakim) snored and stretched out his arms and kena me.... so i had to wake up... aiyoxx.....

den... we returned to our bunks.... but i slept only for 15 mins as i had to pack..... and i woke up because faizal woke me up.....

den we bathe together again and we went down at 0730... for breakfast.... and then we had to wait for the next activity....

while waiting.... Hairie.... were sitting with mostly EVGians... including my Gang.... hakim they all.... and he also kena the HP n the Tree trick... the one i also kena....

den the bus came and we headed back for Chong Pang CC and had a talk by PAYM and of course.... the Prize Giving ceremony.... Artemis won the title as the most 'Creative' group.... maybe it's because we like to draw stuffxxx on our bodies..... i have a lot.... two on my left foot, another two on my right feet, 4 on my left arm.... i'm not able to do on my right arm.... there still stains rite till now..... aiyoxxx.....

aniwae.... den after photo taking... we were dismissed and sum of us went for Lunch at Macdonalds.... after that... me, hakim, faizal, affiq, zawana, mas and rai.... we decided to stay back for a while more to play sum games.... we played in a void-deck.... so we played two games.... 'BANG!' where the forfeit is to drink a required amount of either COKE of Lemon tea..... i kena.... and drank the coke.... and the other game is of cos.... Truth or Dare.... it was fun.... Mas'dare was to flag a taxi and ask whether she could get a trip to Malaysia.... and she did it...
zawana's was that she had to jay-walk from the starting point to the bus-stop.... we were all laughing.... including sum peeps at the bus stop.... lolxxxx!!!!

d3n hakim's dare was to pick a can drink from a trash in.... but he cheated... he took it from the floor and pretended to take it from insied....then.... it was Faizal's turn... he must befrend with an uncle within 15 secs i tink.... and rush back.....

onli me, rai and affiq.... tak kena dare.... lolxxxxx......

so den we all took the same bus home- 858....faizal alighted first den me and Kamelia.... so when i got home.... there's this big present waiting for me on my bed.... so i decided to open it.... and i got myself a PDA.... i was like.... THANKS MOM AND DAD!!!

den.... i charged it.... surfed the net.... ans slept until 5 am the next dae....

so that's all... SAYONARA!!!

ok.... dis is jus for ur info... check out the idol phenomenon...
WORLD IDOL 2003

Australia- Australian Idol (Ten)
Belgium- Idool 2003 | Idool 2004 (VTM)
Bulgaria COMING SOON
Canada Canadian Idol (CTV)
Croatia Hrvatski Idol (Nova)
Czech Republic Česko Hledá SuperStar (Nova)
Denmark Idols - Ærlig Jagt, Ægte Talent (TV3)
Finland Idols (MTV3)
France A La Recherche De La Nouvelle Star | Nouvelle Star 2004 (M6)
Germany Deutschland Sucht Den SuperStar (RTL)
Greece Super Idol (MEGA)
Hungary COMING SOON
Indonesia Indonesian Idol (RCTI)
Iceland Idol - (Stjörnuleit Stöð2)
India COMING SOON
Kazakhstan Superstar KZ (NTK)
Malaysia Malaysian Idol UPDATED (8TV)
The Netherlands Idols (RTL4)
New Zealand NZ Idol (TV2)
Norway Idol (TV2)
Pan-Arabia Super Star | Super Star 2004 (Future)
Portugal Ídolos (SIC)
Poland Idol (Polsat)
Russia Narodniy Artist (RTR)
Serbia/Montenegro Idol (BKTV)
Singapore Singapore Idol UPDATED (Channel 5)
Slovakia COMING SOON (STV)
South Africa Idols (Mnet)
Turkey Turkstar NEW (Kanal D)
UK Pop Idol (ITV)
USA American Idol | American Juniors (Fox)

that is like.... WHOAH!

hmmm... i tink that the movie theatre is now officially my third home.....

ok... yesterdae i watched Harry Potter rite..... that was with my Uncle and aunt.... along with my cousins.... 5 to be exact.....

aniwae.... todae.... i watched another movie.... this time with Zafirah and evonne.... we decided to watch The Day After Tommorrow....

ok... i arrived first.... i was sitting looking at the overhead screen.... den zaf came.... de she called evonne.... asking where she is.... at that time.... she was still in the bus on the way here....

aniwae.... den she came... den.... i had to buy the tix.... as i'm the onli guy there.... that's not FAIR!

aniwae.... we catch the 1415 movie.....

before we go in.... we sat for awhile.... den we started to munch our snax..... i got the nachos... as i'm the one hu bought it.... aniwae.... we talked of 'EXCO' things.... and we also talked about Chong An backing out of student council.... haixxx.....

den we settled down in the theatre.... so evonne.... she jus cant stop teasing me and zaf.... so we teased her back ah..... by talking malay.... hehexxxxx

den.... the movie started....




ok... if those hu have not seen the movie.... if u tink that i'd give some sypnopsis on the movie.... sorry to disappoint y'all.... hehexxxxx.... check it out urself....

aniwae.... the movie was like.... FULLAMAK..... I WANT TO WATCH AGAIN!!!! it was EXCELLENT.... MAGNIFIQUE!

den.... after the movie.... evonne ajak me and zaf go PS.... to see guitar.... with Cheng Hui.... but we dun wan.... both of us wan to go back and sleep....zzZzzzZzZ.....

so that's all folks....

a word of advice....
GO AND CATCH 'THE DAY AFTER TOMMORROW'.... WORTH LOSING YOUR MONEY TO!

goood nIteXXXX....

ok.... according to my watch..... it's now 1:36 am.... and i'm postin at this damn hour..... and sumore i'm in a dark room, in my aunt's house.....
aniwae..... i watched Harry Potter todae and it was like.... WHOAH!! KEWL!!!

aniwae.... i jus came back from ELDDS meeting rite.... den my mom sae that my uncle wanted to belanja me for a movie.... along with my two other cousins..... whom i've not talked to in like a year... so i treat it as a 'reunion' lah....

aniwae.... we watched the 7 o'clock show.... but we bought the tix at 7:93 i tink.... and it was like many people queing for the tix.....

aniwae.... we missed like the first 10 mins of the movie..... but it was fine with me..... maybe i'll watch it again next week....

honestly.... i thought that Ron and Hermione would kiss in this season.... as the review said that a love has blosso between Him and Hermione....

aniwae.... overall it ws kewl.....

after that.... we all go makan at KFC.... again.... my uncle treat...... den we went back here-my aunt's house....

den we eat fish and chips lah.... macam macam lah.....

after that.... evryone's is sleeping now.... except me, and my two cousins..... we intended to be up late..... to watch tv.... play games.... and of course talk of things..... i jus cant sleep if i dun talk to sumone.... or myself.....

aniwae.... dat's all..... and I would like to have the honour to end this post.... FAREWELL!

ok.... i took this test rite.... and guess wat.... my inner child is 16 years old 2dae!!!

My inner child is sixteen years old!

Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.


How Old is Your Inner Child?
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phew.... wat a tiring week! i've been sleeping like more than two daes alredi.... thursdae... i came back from skool and went straight to bed.... from 3pm 'till 8 in the evening.... todae.... i wake up at 10..... den after fridae prayers.... i surf the net for 3 hrs.... den i went back to sleep..... and ya.... not forgetting how much i slept on tues and weds..... after the camp i slept till morning....... and on weds i slept for a few hours but slept latelah..... jus to watch world idol..... i slept although i dun have aniting on because i was bored........

aniwae.... let's talk about todae..... todae is fridae rite.... and there's fridae prayers rite..... so... i go with azhar... i was a bit late because one of my teachers..... decided to call me up and i kena lecture..... aiyoxxx.....
aniwae.... i was late.... for quite abit... but i tink he's ok with it.... aniwae.... the bus came.... and on the wae there.... we talked of things.... nabila.... ncc.... band camp.... footdrills..... alot lah....
aniwae.... we reached there and qamarul was there as well.... den.... sufi came..... qamarul's junior in band.... practically mine as well... aniwae.... den we started tokin about band.... i was like OMG... inside.... but i just listened.....
after that.... azmi and hafiez came.... den we all went up to the third level to pray..... while waiting.... sufi jus can't stop touching my thinkgs.... first he took my wallet.... and looked at my cards.... den.... the azan was heard.... then we pray....

after the prayers, we went down.... and met up with idros.... den we all buy sum juice and headed home....for the whole time when sufi was with the group.... he kena kacau by us.... seniors.... the worst was me... i tink.... aniwae.... he was called 'Big Burp' as he burps alot.... eewgh!

aniwae.... in order to go to his house.... he has to take 912.... but then the rest took 913.... den we had to leave him as our bus came.... den we board the bus rite.... den azmi made a funny comment.... 'maner budak tu... takot dier kener rogol ke per...' lolxxx...... aniwae..... we talked of world idol... den went on to EVGian idol.... den we went on Teachers Idol... we made it up.... we also made up the rules & regulations.... one was that contestants aren't allowed to talk back to the student judges.....
the worst comment that we thought of was mr alawden.... azmi... i tink said.... you should put sum cream to make u whiter.... my worst comment was mrs koh.... 'in order to be an idol... u must be tall'...hahaxxx
aniwae.... den we all alighted at the same stop.... so... takder kerjer lain... me, azmi, azhar and hafiez..... we all... sent evrybodi home.... first was azmi... den azhar... den me and hafiez.... as we r of the same block.....

den... i reached home and straight awae on the computer.... den surf the net.... for the whole 3 hrs.... i was logged in the forum.... onli me, azhar and zaf online we r regulars.... we all talked of things on it... most of the time we all discussed in malay,..... aniwae.... i tink i posted in all the forums..... hehexxx.... wan to get higher grades.... i'm now B4.... hehexxx.....

aniwae.... den after surfing the net... i went to bed.... tired lah.....
aniwae.... dat's all i did for the dae.... so.... this is Iyul, for Freakydaxious News.....